Eyes Wide Open
I’ve been listening to Heather Macauley’s cd, The Silent Language of Peace. I’ve been trying to listen to it every day to uplift myself and keep myself from falling into a fear-induced depression. I’ve been doing pretty well. The cd seems to be helping to keep me hopeful. But yesterday after the kids left, I had gone to work and noticed my spirits dipping. So I put in the cd. Her voice is very soothing and most of the stuff I could identify with and agree with. I did find certain things a bit trite, but there is nothing on the cd that I actually disagreed with. But said in her soothing voice, her words sounded spiritually truthful.
Then I got to thinking about televangelists and how they manipulate people and I got to thinking about the evangelists who followed folks into the wilderness because the wilderness was filled with danger and people needed faith to discharge their fears. And I got to thinking that that’s what we’re going through is just another form of wilderness where we can’t see what’s in front of us, yet we have to keep going. To stop and give up means certain tragedy. And this is where a whole lot of faith comes from.
I am all for learning to use the laws of the Universe effectively to create what we want. But I don’t want to adopt a belief just to assuage a fear. Because that sort of means you stay blind. It’s like tucking your face into your mama’s skirt so you won’t have to face the boogey man in front of you. Well, I don’t like boogey men either, but I don’t want to hide from reality. I am willing to change reality, to make other choices, to work with Universal laws to create a better reality, but I want to do it with my eyes wide open, facing the future boldly. Because the truth is, no matter what right now looks like, we have no idea what the future looks like. We may FEEL the future looks bleak if we are full of fear or we are tired of struggling and our vibration is all out of whack due to strumming the chords of fear consistently. Or our lives may be moving along so perfectly that we may feel our future is bright and rosy. But until the future becomes NOW, we don’t know anything about it. In fact, it doesn’t even exist except as a probability. The only thing that makes it seem to exist now is the thoughts we are giving it. And according to Law of Attraction the thoughts we give it are what characterize those future moments. The laws of probability say the next moment will look a lot like this moment. So if we allow ourselves to feel the future is bleak in this moment, it’s probable it will feel bleak when the next moment arrives.
It’s hard not to fall back into fear when you are aware of your vulnerabilities. Yet it’s ridiculous to simply tell yourself not to fear. At the same time, when your thoughts are full of fear, it’s likely your actions will fall short of divinely inspired—who can hear the peace of inspiration when the cacophony of fear dominates your mind? So merely taking action seems inadequate—but at least taking some action puts your focus somewhere else.
The toning meditation Macauley offers on her cd is helpful. It makes you focus differently. I’ve not been able to get through even five minutes of toning before I’m tired, but I can see how even a few minutes of it calms your thoughts and brings you back to a place of peacefulness. Even if that’s all it accomplishes, it’s better than feeling fearful and sabotaging your vibration. I am not one to meditate, and doing so now sort of reminds me of people who get religion after they’ve been diagnosed with a deadly illness. But my eyes are open, my intellect intact. I will take the medicine that gives me the most freedom to use my mind and not be used by it. I understand Andrew Weil also has some toning meditation on his cd Sound Body Sound Mind. Maybe I’ll check that out from the library this week.
