Developing skills in deliberate creation
It is late May and my husband and I have been looking for jobs since August of last year. Some would say it is definitely time to be getting frantic and filled with despair. Some may look at our situation and wonder how we are managing to keep ourselves sane. I would have asked myself this too if I hadn’t figured out how to get some peace.
I just read one of those last posts I wrote on August 2nd last year, the day my hubby lost his job. I read that last line over and over, the part where I embraced our new life of abundance and freedom. I didn’t know what was ahead of me, but I knew how I wanted it to feel. I am so glad I set that intention.
I’ve been listening to Heather Macauley’s cd, The Silent Language of Peace. I’ve been trying to listen to it every day to uplift myself and keep myself from falling into a fear-induced depression. I’ve been doing pretty well. The cd seems to be helping to keep me hopeful. But yesterday after the kids left, I had gone to work and noticed my spirits dipping. So I put in the cd. Her voice is very soothing and most of the stuff I could identify with and agree with. I did find certain things a bit trite, but there is nothing on the cd that I actually disagreed with. But said in her soothing voice, her words sounded spiritually truthful.
Well, it’s happened. That which so many American households fear: job loss. The main bread winner has lost his job.
Given that I’ve recently experienced the reality of the economic downturn, it seems appropriate that I’ve been reading Jane Robert’s The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events.
It has been quite some time since I had the luxury of posting here. In the busy months since my last activity, I have been working so hard. I guess that means I’ve been creating prosperity. But at the same time, it feels like an important avenue of prosperity has been choked off. Well, it appears that way from one perspective. But I’ve observed more than once in this life that things that initially appear bleak, can turn out to be greater blessings than you’d ever imagine.
Life has been moving along at a frenetic pace this month—I guess that’s my explanation for neglecting this blog for three weeks. This morning I had a tooth pulled and was forced to slow down a bit, so here I am.
Do you ever wonder why certain themes seem to re-occur in your life? Perhaps you seem to create the same types of relationships with the people you date or you somehow find you’ve replaced one unhealthy friendship with another unhealthy friendship? Or you swap one illness for another? Perhaps you finally overcome one financial hardship only to find yourself immersed in yet another?
The more I read Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now, the more peaceful I become. I know that sounds cliché, but it’s the truth. In the last week I had a very upsetting episode with someone I’d known all my life. I won’t go into the details of it, but suffice it to say that if I’d had this situation occur before I’d read The Power of Now, I’d probably still be stewing about it. I would still be angry, I’d still be justifying my righteousness. But because of the new perspective I received from The Power of Now, it’s almost like I don’t even care who was right or wrong or even what happened. I’ve made a decision about it and I am really not very interested in wasting anymore time about it, or any more thought or feeling about it.
If you’ve been able to explore some of Eckhart Tolle’s work, you’ll be more familiar with the shift in awareness I speak of in this post. If you haven’t explored Tolle yet, I invite you to do that, and particularly to explore that shift between ego identification and broader identification with Awareness so that you can better grasp what this post is offering.